Are you Happy?

Have I posted this already?


It has been three weeks since we re-opened and it seems like we never closed! The environment has changed tremendously, yet it is still the Bean to me. Liz has walked out 4 times, called me numerous names I can't repeat,and yet still shows up for work everyday at 6:45 or 7 or there about! I have gone in as late as 4 and as early as 2:30. It seems that the work gets done no matter what time we get there, sometimes it is easier that others, getting to work on time helps this!! The responsibility of having a restaurant with matching silverware and chairs is incredible.

When a regular comes in and sees the difference the look of shock is always apparent. Wow this is... nice, beautiful,shiny, clean,different,bigger, smaller, the response is mostly positive. There is no denying that it is not the old Black Bean aesthetically. It is indeed really really nice. I have a hard time having all that I have there. The ability to breathe fresh air by opening a window is so great. The way the smoke just disappears through the hood when I burn something, or washing a load of dishes in under 3 minutes is mind boggling. The counter tops, the chairs, the flatware, the china, the grill, the list goes on and on.When seeing the new Black Bean many people have said Are you happy?

At firs I don't think that I really understood the question. Am I happy? When someone asks that I don't think am I happy now this instant I think am I happy in whole. Then I think why are you asking this, do I seem sad? This seems so silly, but I truly started to think about the whole question. Why would someone want to know if I was happy (with my life). Gosh there are so many things that I worry about and so many things that I would like to control and cannot, how could I possibly be happy. When I asked a few people the question most, if not all, said they were happy with their lives, content. Again I thought wow how could anyone be content with all that is going on in this world? The funny thing is I think of my self as someone who rarely takes anything seriously. Why then is this simple statement/question nagging at me? If I were to say that I was happy would I have to remain happy? Doesn't happiness come and go? Or if I said I was content would it all become boring?

Over the past 3 weeks I have come to view the question differently. "Are you happy" is not are you content, nor does it mean to encompass my life in its entirety. It is simply a question are you happy with... the change in your business? Duh, why would I think that the question had to have such poigancy? Maybe because I am so self centered and think that everyone wants to know about me? Three weeks ago I was in such a state of shock that I was not able to comprehend what was going on around me. So to answer the question, Phil are you happy (with the way it has all turned out? Yes!!Never in a million years would I have thought that I could bring to fruition such a place. It is definitely not the old Black Bean with the living room to lounge in. It is indeed a cafe/restaurant.

To be in the new place is truly refreshing. It is bright and the air flows through it. The counters and tables remind me of an era past. The new equipment makes it seem like I am playing. With all the newness around me it has been hard to remember where I am, at The Black Bean. A cafe we bought 5 years ago on a wing and a prayer. Where it would go we had no idea!! Through those years we did develop a plan. Over this past 6 months we were forced to put that plan into action. If we wanted to survive and continue we would have to change.

In all honesty I was unsure about the change. I miss the old Black Bean. I miss the relaxed atmosphere that it had. I miss the eclecticness of the place. I miss the two separate rooms, one for lounging and one for eating.I miss the peeling floors. I miss the colors. I miss the couch!! I am glad that I have so many Black Bean memories there. Like when my parents came up and blew up one of those giant snowmen in the living room, or Friday night dinners and game night(nor cross buns),open mic and potluck dinners.

I am happy. I am happy

Great Day

The re-opening went really well. Great to see familiar faces. Liz and I are out of practice, though. ( I wonder how Taintor feels? she did prep today) I even had a guest chef!! Evan from Black Trumpet came in and stayed for awhile. He made some mushroom and roasted eggplant soup, then Dad said he had to leave!! Thanks Evan the soup was great. '
Well itis time for the kids to put us to bed!!
Good night.

Hip Hip Hurray We are open!!!!!

It is the eve of the Black Bean Cafe re-opening. We were able to sit down with Phil for a few minutes and finsh off an interview we started last year!! A lot has happened since then, but Phil and family are excited to jump back in and get things rolling.


So how does it feel?

Crazy, we are all so excited and scared. There is so much riding on this and we have been away from it for what seems an eternity, can we do it?


Of course you can. You did it before, why would you be so nervous?


We were all so much younger before!! It is hard for us to believe that Owen was only 2 and Eliza 10, never mind Liz and I.
It is scarier this time because the expectations are different. We established ourselves and now even though we are just down the street the setting is very different. When we set out to do this it was going to be a simple move. One party moves out another cleans, repairs, paints and moves in. It was in no way that simple.


Can you elaborate on that, like why not?

Oh gosh where do I begin? Niether party left when expected, I was hoping to be out by 12/14 and hoping they would be out by 11/1 then 11/14 then 12/1 then 12/5 then...
For me there was the landlord not keeping his word about the price then wanting a temporary lease for 24 days then an ice storm and a week later a snow storm then the Holidays.
Well we both seemed to get out by the end of December. Then it was how long will it take to re-hab Mayo's? She took everything right down to the light bulbs. I would like to say if it wasn't nailed down she took it, but she even did that. She did leave a leaky hand sink, and urinal!! The walk in was left behind minus all of the inards. (One of my favorite things that Police chief Duchane said was, that she probably owned the compressor motor and coolant!) Then of course there was the sink fiasco (again a Rollinsford PD moment, I being accused of stealing,the police taking someones word and then helping to remove the items in question from my premises. When shown proof of ownership it was no longer a police matter!). But we still thought 3 weeks. How naive. Three months and lots of money later we are opening.


What is it like?

Liz and my plan to marry the two places didn't pan out as well as we would have liked. It turned out that the major pieces of furniture and counter would not fit or were just to hard to move. All said and done we are delighted with the final outcome. Tthe old Bean is still there and will be found in the food and company, we hope. Uh it is getting late and I have to get up early, it is Sticky Bun day tomorrow.

Ok. Thank you for takin some time this evening. Your hours are the same?

Yes, Tues -Fri 7-4 and Sat and Sun 7-12. Hey i gotta get to sleep. See ya and thanks for doing this.

No promblem. I will see you at the Bean in the am!!!






Blogger: I want to start off by letting you know how honored I am that I am here to talk with you.
Phil: The honor is all mine.
Blogger: How exactly did you get here?
Phil: I am not sure what you mean by that? Did I walk or drive?
Blogger: No no no. You are 46 years old father of 4 children and owner of The Black Bean Cafe. Was this a long time dream of yours or something that just fell into your lap?
Phil: Oh I see. When Liz and I first "got together" we always talked about having some type of eatery. We met while working at Bob's Clam Hut in the late 80's, so the restaurant business is what brought us together. I could never quite figure out what kind of place I wanted or how to make it work. The last three jobs that I had helped me to realize that I could actually do it. They were Ceres Bakery, The Loaf and Ladle and Flynn's News. Then in October of 2003 this opportunity presented itself to us. We jumped and have been jumping since December 2003.
Blogger: So would you say that you are livin the dream?
Phil: On a good day I would. This is something that we have always wanted and it is what we have always been warned about. It is my life. It is all consuming. Push come to shove I cannot imagine being anywhere else.
Blogger: What is your favorite food to eat?
Phil: I don't really know that I have a favorite. Tonights dinner at home was pasta with a red sauce and sausage. It reminded me of Sunday dinner at Nonnies. That is what I look for when I eat. A memory.
Blogger: Is this what you have always wanted to do?
Phil: Not sleep, worry all the time, not know if anyone is going to come in for coffee or lunch and not spend time with my family? That is what I have always wanted to do.
Blogger: You have a little sarcasm in your voice? Where does that come from?
Phil: See above.
Blogger: Moving right along. The Black Bean Cafe is in a small town in southern New Hampshire. Do you have enough of a customer base to make it?
Phil: You know it is weird, but since we opened people seem to come in. At first it was a good mix of Mill people and towns people. It was a place for parents to come with their kids and the mill workers to meet over a cup of coffee lunch or snack. I think that in the beginning we did not really have a clear picture of what we wanted to do. My thought was a cafe that was more like an old fashioned coffee shop. Liz's idea was a vegetarian restaurant. With those two thoughts we opened.
Blogger: And????
Phil: And we had a wide variety of baked goods and a limited sandwich menu. Soup was a natural addition. Then a hot entree seemed a smart addition. After the first year I think that we had established ourselves as a lunch spot not only for locals but for "out of towners" too.
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We are back with Phil from the Black Bean. We started this interview with him in April. It is now Nov. 9th.

So Phil what has been going on?

Phil: I think the last time I talked to you was in April, right?